Wednesday, May 30, 2012

A break from my mental struggles

Since my last post, I've been trying to keep myself busy and keep my mind occupied.  So far this has worked about 30% of the time.  The other 70% of the time my brain keeps freaking out about my interview, acls test, being fired, and feeling worthless.

But today I took the bit in my teeth and eliminated at least one of my worries.  I passed my ACLS test!  Passed!  Now I just have to get the card in the mail.

Yesterday, Oldest and I went on a hike with our dogs, and that seemed to improve both of our moods.  Especially since we aren't having the dust storms of last week:

Normally there's a mountain out there....

And last week I got a visit from Youngest, Fiance, and Grandbaby:

He's still as cute as ever!

That was a nice distraction.

And, tomorrow I have my interview, which is what keeps my brain circling around the whole worthless thing.  I'm sure it's going to be fine.

Just try telling my brain that.

Remember, it's just a ride.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

A little news is better than no news!

Da dada daaaaaaah!  I have a job interview!  Next week in the ICU!

I actually got the call while in a fitting room with Youngest at Victoria's Secret.  The call was very interesting:

"Is this Tonja?"


"This is ICU Manager from St.Mary's calling about your application?"

"Oh, yes"

"Sorry, but I can't hear you, this is ICU Manager?!"

"Oh, sorry, I'm in a little cubicle in the mall."

"I'd like you to come in for an interview?  When is good for you?"

"Uh, any time next week?"

"Ok, good, next Thursday at 11, ok? And bring scrubs, we'll have you tail a nurse for an hour or so, so you can see what it's like."

"Ok, that'll be great!"


"I said that will be great!"
 All the while the sales girl kept yelling over the door to Youngest about how her bra fit her.  Nothing like a good impression!

Remember, it's just a ride.         

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Sunday musings

I have a lot of time on my hands now, and I am finding myself quickly becoming bored.  So I have been making lists in my head of things I could do to pass the time:

1- Read.  I'm a big reader, always have been.  The problem with this?  The only new book I have to read is:

The Hunger Games (Hunger Games Series #1)

I borrowed it from Oldests' boyfriend.  I just can't get myself to open it.  I keep thinking, "It's a teen book!"  Not that that stopped me from reading Harry Potter....  Plus, I really should be taking my ACLS test, but I'm worried about it, so I keep procrastinating.

2- Sewing.  I used to always have a quilt or cross-stitch going whenever there was down time.  The problem?  I have 3 sewings in progress, and I keep thinking that I used to enjoy doing this with my mom, until she went crazy.  Now I don't have anyone to share it with.

3- Practice piano.  Ok, this one is doable, I'm just procrastinating because I'm frustrated with the Moonlight Sonata.  It's killing my hands and wrists.  But I'm stubborn and will press on...

4- TV watching.  Well, I just finished the first season of ER, but I don't own the other ones.  And Netflix doesn't have them on streaming, which means I would have to get each season ONE DISC AT A TIME.



5- Yardwork.  Already doing that.  Mowing the lawn, watering the lawn, watching the grass grow...

6- Hiking/biking.  Sure. Sure can, but I'd like to be able to do it with someone and not alone.  You guys have no idea how alone I feel right now.  I need people!

7- Get drunk.  Actually, this was much higher on my list 2 days ago.  Like #1 and I asked Husband how long is it socially acceptable to go on a bender.  His reply?  "We're going to the Brewery?"

Anybody else have some interesting distractions?

Remember, it's just a ride. (oh yeah, definitely trying to keep that firmly in my mind!)

Friday, May 18, 2012

Ready to get your Frack on?

Brought to you by the awesome Dazee at Crazy Daze & Nite Dreams!

As promised, the frack of the week iiiiiiiis:


As some of you know, I was fired this week because my boss doesn't like me.  And I know that sounds like an excuse, but unfortunately it's not, soooo...

Frack you you self-absorbed, yokel talking, non-medically trained, vindictive bitch!  The reason that you fired me, ie- failed to document B12 injections and INR results was just an excuse to fire me.  After you wrote me up for INR documentation I had been very, very careful to document every single one.  And twice I had forgotten to document the B12's in 3 months, and each time was asked to correct it, which I did, AND I STILL GOT FIRED.  After correcting my mistakes!

Now, I was always under the impression that mistakes can be made, we are only human, and correcting your mistakes was good, that's how you learned.  Especially when we've been using a new system for pharmacy and MARs, and NO ONE, not one nurse, has yet to consistently and correctly document on the new MAR.

But guess what folks?  I was the only one to be written up for it, and I am the only one being fired for it.  There is one nurse who has NEVER been able to get into the medication system to document ANYTHING!  Is she getting fired?  No.  Has she been written up?  No.

Now, I gotta tell you all, after months of blogging about hostile workplace practices, that I am extremely relieved to not have to go back to that place again.  I have a feeling my anxiety and irritable bowel will calm down.  But I am 40 years old and live in a small town, and now I'm having to look for another job.

And that part sucks.

So, FRACK YOU, employers with personal issues, and FRACK YOU to the general employment atmosphere in this country today!

Remember, it's just a ride.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

I have an announcement!

Oh yes, I sure do.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I am no longer employed.  That's right, I've been shitcanned.  Look forward to my friday post because I'll be posting the most vent worthy Frack you Friday post ever!

Remember, it's just a ride.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Great Mothers' Day!

Flowers from Oldest and necklace, (with matching earrings), from Husband.  Did a little puttering around in the yard and some laundry, had Oldest and Faux Granddaughter over, video chatted with Youngest and got to see Grandbaby, and later Husband is going to make dinner and take me to the brewery for a beer!

Couldn't ask for a better day!  Hope all you mom's out there are having a great Mothers' Day!

Remember, it's just a ride.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012