But at least I have it off!
So, I'm looking at the 30 Day Challenge list, and since I didn't blog anything yesterday, I suppose I am on day 23- A Letter to Your Parents.
To tell the truth, I really don't want to write this one. A letter to my dad is just fine and dandy, but a letter to my mom is not something I want to think about.
A letter to both would just be ridiculous, they've been divorced since I was 10.
So, if you want to stick around for a not-so-fun blog, dear reader, read on....
To my parents:
I'm not sure if life would have been any better growing up if you stayed together, looking back, I think I'm glad you didn't. I remember a lot of fighting, and a lot of dissatisfaction. Especially from you, mom.
Unfortunately, you're still not happy, even though you supposedly got what you wanted at the time, and that makes me sad, mom.
Dad, while you didn't get what you wanted, and still don't a lot of the time, you at least grew up and learned to be content, if not happy with what you have and your world around you. Mom will go kicking and screaming to the end of her days, but you, dad, you will learn, understand, and come to terms with your life and surrender peacefully.
If I can choose which parents' attributes I want, I choose yours dad. Slightly eccentric, but with an eye to the world like a child learning all they can so they can understand the world around them.
I know we all bend our memory and shape it so that we look good to ourselves, but sometimes it goes to far, and then it's just you lying to yourself and hoping no one notices. This is you mom. And I do not choose to be like that. I do not choose to be forever unhappy and hating life because it didn't live up to my unrealistic expectations.
I choose not to hurt the ones I love to get my own way. I choose to live life like each day is a new day, and to enjoy the people around me as much as they'll let me.
Uh. I guess that's it. I know I have way more to say, but who wants to be depressed this early in the morning? Really.
Remember, it's just a ride.